A very revealing IM conversation with Brit:
yourroadbackhome (12:24:32 AM): and what are you doing for the 4th of july
ManicMonday79 (12:24:51 AM): I've been invited to a house party
ManicMonday79 (12:25:04 AM): a cookout back yard sorta deal.
yourroadbackhome (12:25:10 AM): oh fine
ManicMonday79 (12:25:10 AM): at Cassie and Aarons
ManicMonday79 (12:25:20 AM): you can come too if you'd like
ManicMonday79 (12:25:32 AM): why are you so mad at me?
yourroadbackhome (12:25:40 AM): i wouldnt know anyone
ManicMonday79 (12:25:37 AM): did you have plans?
yourroadbackhome (12:25:47 AM): well it's weird
yourroadbackhome (12:25:53 AM): i mean you would only know those two people
ManicMonday79 (12:25:59 AM): well not necessarily
yourroadbackhome (12:26:08 AM): i dont care
ManicMonday79 (12:26:11 AM): I think a couple other people I know are coming
ManicMonday79 (12:26:19 AM): Nick
yourroadbackhome (12:26:28 AM): ok
yourroadbackhome (12:26:32 AM): well no one i know would be
ManicMonday79 (12:26:32 AM): and Carneal maybe
yourroadbackhome (12:26:36 AM): and thats awkward
yourroadbackhome (12:26:51 AM): my mom just asked
yourroadbackhome (12:26:53 AM): i really dont care
ManicMonday79 (12:26:51 AM): Prolly
ManicMonday79 (12:26:52 AM): god
ManicMonday79 (12:26:53 AM): shit
yourroadbackhome (12:27:00 AM): what?
yourroadbackhome (12:27:05 AM): is wrong with you
ManicMonday79 (12:27:01 AM): I can't remember names of my friends
ManicMonday79 (12:27:10 AM): Izabela
yourroadbackhome (12:27:19 AM): ok
ManicMonday79 (12:27:22 AM): It's not a big deal
yourroadbackhome (12:27:32 AM): yeah
ManicMonday79 (12:27:32 AM): did you have plans?
yourroadbackhome (12:27:37 AM): i know so do whatever
yourroadbackhome (12:27:39 AM): i was just asking
ManicMonday79 (12:27:36 AM): or yr mom?
yourroadbackhome (12:27:42 AM): not yet
yourroadbackhome (12:27:46 AM): she just wanted to know
ManicMonday79 (12:27:49 AM): I'm coming a few days after anyways
yourroadbackhome (12:28:06 AM): ya i know
yourroadbackhome (12:28:14 AM): and that would be such a waste for me to only go up forone day
ManicMonday79 (12:28:11 AM): well I've only really gotten to know Cassie for a bit
yourroadbackhome (12:28:22 AM): ok
yourroadbackhome (12:28:26 AM): well im not stopping you
ManicMonday79 (12:28:22 AM): and I'd like to get to spend time with her
ManicMonday79 (12:28:27 AM): and know her better
yourroadbackhome (12:28:34 AM): why?
ManicMonday79 (12:28:33 AM): so I think I will do this
yourroadbackhome (12:28:41 AM): ok
yourroadbackhome (12:28:43 AM): fine
ManicMonday79 (12:28:39 AM): I need more close friends
yourroadbackhome (12:28:45 AM): do what you want
ManicMonday79 (12:28:48 AM): see you always do that
yourroadbackhome (12:29:02 AM): well you dont have close friends
ManicMonday79 (12:29:04 AM): I never stop you from doing ANYTHING WITH YOUR FRIENDS
yourroadbackhome (12:29:09 AM): i mean why do you think you need them
yourroadbackhome (12:29:18 AM): well im not stopping you now
ManicMonday79 (12:29:16 AM): and when I want to be social, you get nasty with me
yourroadbackhome (12:29:23 AM): i dont have close boy friends
yourroadbackhome (12:29:27 AM): no i dont
ManicMonday79 (12:29:27 AM): and cop a passive agressive attitude
yourroadbackhome (12:29:37 AM): no
ManicMonday79 (12:29:42 AM): you don't trust me, do you
ManicMonday79 (12:29:46 AM): to be around other girls
yourroadbackhome (12:29:53 AM): i did not say that
ManicMonday79 (12:29:58 AM): you're implying that
ManicMonday79 (12:30:10 AM): by saying "i don't have close boy friends"
yourroadbackhome (12:30:16 AM): no i trust you
yourroadbackhome (12:30:23 AM): i dont understand why you need close girl friends
yourroadbackhome (12:30:38 AM): nevermind
ManicMonday79 (12:30:37 AM): then why is it an issue that i'd want to be at the house of a girl I know
yourroadbackhome (12:30:42 AM): i mean forget it
ManicMonday79 (12:30:43 AM): it's not about gender
ManicMonday79 (12:30:49 AM): it has nothing to do with that
yourroadbackhome (12:30:56 AM): ok
ManicMonday79 (12:30:53 AM): I want more close friends
ManicMonday79 (12:31:03 AM): esp. with Matthew so far away.
yourroadbackhome (12:31:08 AM): why you wont havev time for them anyways
yourroadbackhome (12:31:17 AM): you have to work and then in the fall you'll go to school
ManicMonday79 (12:31:19 AM): I like connections with people.
yourroadbackhome (12:31:32 AM): yeah ok
ManicMonday79 (12:31:33 AM): why are you so anti me being happy
yourroadbackhome (12:31:41 AM): im not
ManicMonday79 (12:31:40 AM): I mean seriously
ManicMonday79 (12:31:43 AM): what the fuck?
yourroadbackhome (12:31:53 AM): i am not
ManicMonday79 (12:31:52 AM): you are jealous
yourroadbackhome (12:32:02 AM): no i am not
ManicMonday79 (12:31:59 AM): and you don't trust me
yourroadbackhome (12:32:10 AM): i do so trust you
ManicMonday79 (12:32:12 AM): which is why you don't want me to have close female friends
ManicMonday79 (12:32:25 AM): you've even said before you have issues fully trusting me
yourroadbackhome (12:32:38 AM): that must have been a long time ago
yourroadbackhome (12:32:44 AM): i cant talk about this anymore
ManicMonday79 (12:32:42 AM): and for fuck's sake, she and Aaraon have a fucking baby
yourroadbackhome (12:32:54 AM): yeah i know
yourroadbackhome (12:32:59 AM): so what
yourroadbackhome (12:33:06 AM): i need to go to sleep
ManicMonday79 (12:33:11 AM): so WHY are you discouraging me from seeking connections with people?
ManicMonday79 (12:33:14 AM): you do this
ManicMonday79 (12:33:19 AM): constantly'
ManicMonday79 (12:33:23 AM): and it enrages me
yourroadbackhome (12:33:33 AM): well i dont have tons of friends
ManicMonday79 (12:33:34 AM): you did it when I went to enchanted rock with Polaris
yourroadbackhome (12:33:49 AM): taht was different
ManicMonday79 (12:33:46 AM): and when I wanted to spend time just with Matthew
ManicMonday79 (12:33:56 AM): no, it's not
ManicMonday79 (12:34:10 AM): you hate that I have any sort of social life when you don't.
ManicMonday79 (12:34:17 AM): it makes you feel lonely and left out
ManicMonday79 (12:34:23 AM): and so you get angry at me
ManicMonday79 (12:34:37 AM): that's exactly what this is about
yourroadbackhome (12:34:53 AM): whatever
yourroadbackhome (12:35:03 AM): i dont care
ManicMonday79 (12:35:08 AM): no
ManicMonday79 (12:35:15 AM): you just run away
yourroadbackhome (12:35:29 AM): whatever
ManicMonday79 (12:35:31 AM): whenever confronted with how yr behavior effects our relationship
yourroadbackhome (12:35:42 AM): im not going to stop you
ManicMonday79 (12:35:38 AM): you play the i dont care card
ManicMonday79 (12:35:46 AM): no, that's right
ManicMonday79 (12:35:48 AM): yr not
yourroadbackhome (12:36:07 AM): whatever
yourroadbackhome (12:36:12 AM): maybe i just wont come up
ManicMonday79 (12:36:13 AM): no
yourroadbackhome (12:36:20 AM): at all you are pissing me off
ManicMonday79 (12:36:18 AM): I need you to
ManicMonday79 (12:36:25 AM): well look
ManicMonday79 (12:36:27 AM): i'm sorry
ManicMonday79 (12:36:37 AM): but when you do that I feel frustrated and hurt
yourroadbackhome (12:36:51 AM): well i feel hurt
yourroadbackhome (12:36:53 AM): but nevermind
ManicMonday79 (12:36:51 AM): because I feel like you are sabotaging me
yourroadbackhome (12:36:59 AM): because no one cares
yourroadbackhome (12:37:01 AM): im not
ManicMonday79 (12:37:07 AM): who does'nt care?
ManicMonday79 (12:37:09 AM): me?
yourroadbackhome (12:37:20 AM): no
yourroadbackhome (12:37:26 AM): well i shouldnt say that
ManicMonday79 (12:37:57 AM): i just want to not feel guilty about crawling out of my shell and trying to build connections with people
ManicMonday79 (12:38:15 AM): and when you got upset with me, I felt guilty.
ManicMonday79 (12:38:23 AM): because this is important to me.
yourroadbackhome (12:38:37 AM): fine
yourroadbackhome (12:38:43 AM): well you do whatever you want
ManicMonday79 (12:38:39 AM): that's all I am saying
ManicMonday79 (12:39:02 AM): I'm sorry I went off on you
ManicMonday79 (12:39:34 AM): it wasn't the best way for me to communicate my feelings
yourroadbackhome (12:39:46 AM): fine
ManicMonday79 (12:39:43 AM): and I apologize
yourroadbackhome (12:39:47 AM): i have to go
ManicMonday79 (12:39:45 AM): ok
yourroadbackhome (12:39:54 AM): ill call u
ManicMonday79 (12:39:52 AM): please call me before you head off
ManicMonday79 (12:39:53 AM): ok
yourroadbackhome (12:39:58 AM): fine
ManicMonday79 (12:39:58 AM): I love you.
yourroadbackhome (12:40:07 AM): i love u too
yourroadbackhome (12:40:07 AM): bye